I suck at making art. gah

Hey Guys! I got my desktop back! And its summer! And that means, when im not working im bored outta my mind and I want to be back in school. Which means I have alot of free time. Soooo, I'm going to try to start doing art again.

It's weird, every since I started doing digital art 4 or so years ago, art has been a major part of my life. Until this year that is, when I really pretty much cut of all of my forum ties, I stopped going to deviant art, and most importantly, I pretty much stopped making pieces at all. I can't say it was a bad transition... art has never really been a good to me, it caused me to spend countless hours at the computer in highschool, caused late nights and slipping grades, and I'm pretty sure I lost friends because I would go out much less.

Still... to me its something that I need to do. It's one of the few creative things I am good at, and while I don't always enjoy it, I feel like I'm missing something If I don't do it. I love art, and whenever I see it I'm reminded of that little piece of myself.

Other news and personal musings:

I got in to transfer to UVA (University of Virginia) next semester, which I'm really excited for. I went to Mary Washington last year, which is a smaller public college/university in VA. I liked it there, but UVA has more opportunities, hotter girls, smarter people, a larger school, better school... did I mention hotter(also smarter!) girls?... yeah.

One thing that pisses me off:
I’ve been going back on facebook and looking at what colleges some of the people I went to high school with went to. One thing I realized is its kind of ridiculous how easy it is for people who are good at a sport to get into a good school. Ok well maybe easy is the wrong word, but I know these people are not getting in on the strength of their academics. None of them are as smart as me (not to be conceited, but its true), and some of them are borderline mentally handicapped. Yet they got into Yale, Harvard, Duke, Brown, Williams, Columbia, Cornell etc. I’m not trying to sound bitter or anything, but this is a serious problem for everybody. First, they are taking spots from people who are actually smart enough and accomplished enough to get in. Second, these colleges are setting these guys up to fail (some of them at least) because they wont be able to work at the level the college demands (i.e. why there is admissions in the first place). So its pretty much bad for everybody, they only thing it does is raise the level of play in some non-traditionally strong athletic schools.

Other life. Well recently, Ive had alot of time to think. I'm a lifeguard which means I sit in a chair all day zoning out and thinking. I think about different stuff, mainly friends and girls, but also my future, the way sex is treated in America, religion, etc. One of my favorite topics has been aging, and leaving my teenage years behind, and mortality. I'm finding it hard to accept that in a few years I'll be expected to grow up, start a life, get married, and possibly start a family. I can't say I enjoyed being a teenager that much, highschool was pretty bad for me, but when your younger, and by that I mean high school and its prerequisites, you seem to think that your youth will last forever. Its not that I was nieve, I knew that I would be old ONE DAY, but it seemed like I had all the time In the world... It would take me forever to be an adult. But I sit there on my high chair thinking, I see all the the little kids running around, and I realize I was them not to long ago, young and carefree. I drive by highschool, and while I would never want to, I realize I can never go back there. I see the seniors graduating and think about how when I was younger, I made fun of them for being so young and little. I see the parents with their kids at the pool, and realize they aren't very much older then me! I realize some things I found fun... aren't fun anymore unless I'm drunk. I sit with my friends and reminisce sometimes...when did it become fun to talk about the past?... we used to just be in the moment. I drove by the elementary school graduation, and I remembered exactly how it felt to be them, and realized that time was not so long ago. only seven years ago, I couldn't even imagine having my first kiss.

Anyway, what I'm getting to is, if time passes from the time your a little kid to being in college, its bound to go faster from now on. Before I know it, I'm going to be old. Life IS short. And now I know.

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Also, I uploaded a print of camera obscura 1 and home!... because I selfishly want one for myself. But If anybody else wants one I'll hook you guys up, I realized a long time ago that I wasn't going to make any money using the prints thing. so if you want those prints, they are at base price which means its the lowest I can make them. I'm not making any money off of them.

of my update of camera obscura 2 [link]

its pretty rare that i update a piece... usually i try to avoid that just because i think its too much effort. but in this case im pretty sure it benefited.

what do you think

sorry ive been gone so long, i have alot on my plate right now

so heres a quick list:

general college work

application for UVA

work for my design class (this crap takes forever because I cant draw)

call of duty 4/partying


I have like 3 half finished works floating around.... im not sure if ill ever finish them but im going to try. also, im thinknig about doing some more t-shirts.... since ive matured a bit more i think i can do a much better job this time around

"home" almost has 100 favs! I never get that kind of reaction from any piece I put up... most pieces take like 6 months to get to 30-40 favs. I have no idea how this happend... I guess its people from the contest but I dunno. I dont even think its my best work... but I guess people like it

anyway Its good to be getting some exposure... once I get back to school and my desktop computer Ill be working on some new stuff, but for now I dont think there will be anything new